sometimes quiet is violent

I have over 6 half written posts stuck in the drafts-section of this blog because I cannot seem to finish anything. Everything I try to write, I just leave unfinished because I don't think anyone will want to read it, and that its boring and I should just stop trying. I hate feeling like I have no direction with what I'm creating and thats why I'm sorry I've been quiet for a while. I don't really know what to say. I have a lot of topics I've been trying to tackle. Anxiety, self-reflection, getting my driving license, leaving to study in another country, but the time doesn't feel right for any of those things. So instead I'm just gonna do what I do best, and that is complain. Enjoy my rage. Firstly. As you know, the US Supreme Court passed the marriage equality law a few days ago. As a result of this, and a result of Pride being a few days after this momentous occasion, and because the world apparently does revolve around America, Facebook created som...

Months ago, I took one of those silly quizzes. Like, "which Harry Potter house are you in" and the like. I rarely do these, mostly because I know I'm a Gryffindor and the rest of the quizzes don't interest me. But there was one about Game of Thrones, and I wanted to know where my characteristics would fit, considering I identify most with either Arya or Daenerys. I took the quiz, and ended up a Targaryen. You do not need to know anything about Game of Thrones to understand what comes next. The only thing that is relevant from that quiz is that one of the options was "what do you do when someone has wronged you?". My answer was "forgive but never forget", which effectively placed me in Targaryen. I've had a lot of chances and situations where I needed to forgive people. I've been bullied since I was 10-years old and that bullying didn't stop when I started 7th grade, it just changed form. Instead of knocking me down or hitting me i...

There are often times where some website or person asks me what my favorite quote is. I tend to go with something by Vonnegut, mostly because his stuff is hilariously satirical. Or then I go with something funny, like a quote on running by the comedian Miranda Hart. But really, the quote that I feel most describes me is what Bruce Banner says in the Avengers right before turning into the Hulk: "That's my secret, I'm always angry" . Then he turns into a giant green rage monster and beats up the bad guys. Moving on, I decided to write about things I'm angry about. There is no happy ending, no silver lining, no "be positive" at the center of this post. Nope. Just about me and my anger. Maybe some self-reflection, but when is there not, right? I've heard that being angry makes you more angry, leaving you in a state of constant and perpetual anger. So lets start with the smaller things. I'm angry at the snow outside. I don't give a shit abou...